off to Aussie mate ;)

Since I don't blog alot, I'd make the effort now to blog before I leave for my holidays. :)

I'm going to Australia on Monday, the 30th November. I'll be there for 3 weeks! :( That is a LONG time!

30th November - 22nd December

Bye I'm gonna miss you! :)

p/s: I love you so much, but why must you be like this to me?

to the core

I MISS YOU TO THE CORE

fish

There are many fishes in the ocean eh?

WOW NEVER KNEW YOU HAD SO MANY BAITS.

Wtf.

I keep forgetting to forget about you

Fiddling around with the wands I made. Damn I miss the guy who's supposed to be having the blue wand. :'(

These few days haven't been really easy for me. It's really hard, seriously. Waking up, knowing you won't be getting a "good morning!" text message. Going to sleep, feeling alone when you can't sleep. All that.

Going out and still missing the person. Still thinking about him everytime you're about to do something. :( UGH.

Anyway, we've been training lately. Non-stop twice a week. Tiring? Yeah.



And I watched 500 Days of Summer last night. I hate it for being so nice. The whole movie reminded me of Us. :'( I cant do anything about it though. Just went to bed. Couldn't sleep. But I tried. And here I am. Awake.



Every day and every week would be the same.

No more surprises.

breathe

Okay, so I assume everyone of you, well almost everyone of you, knows about what happened. As I can see from facebook you were all quite shocked. -.-

It all happened so fast on the 14th November.

Which also happened to be Veler's birthday so,

HAPPY 15th BIRTHAY!


Guess I won't be seeing you much at my house anymore. :(

I hope you had a great birthday. :)

Anyway back to my point, yeah it all happened so fast. No one is to be blamed for it, but maybe myself. Maybe I hadn't been what I was expected to be. But I know I gave my best and tried everything just to see him happy. At least tried. Maybe some of the things I did were really displeasing. The way I acted and whatsoever.

It's hard and all. Especially it's just one week before your 26months anniversary. -.- But anyway, that's alright I guess, as long as he's happy. :) I'm learning to accept the fact that, it's no longer the two of us, but only each of us. If you get what I mean.

Which means people should also know there is a great difference between,

"I still love you" & "I'm still in love with you".

"Let go of someone you love, if he loves you back, he'll come back to you".
- quoted by Amy Ong, everytime I see her, she tells me this -.-

I would take everything back if I could. Having a person to care for me is seriously amazing but I blew it. :( Uhh. I don't know if it's too late but who knows, maybe our paths might meet again? I definitely hope so.

For now, I know and can see that he's happy. And I guess that's all that matters then. His happiness. But I still miss him since I haven't seen him for about like 2 weeks. -.- Guess I'll have to get used to the idea of not seeing him the whole holiday.

I can say he's a new old boy.

I hope everything gets better and maybe something good could happen. November really hasn't been a really good month for people with relationships.

BYE BLOG.

I dont know when will I next update.

xx

p/s: I'm still deeply in love with you.

:(

Today is such a majorly upsetting day. :(

I miss Xhin :'(

I miss you so so so so so so so much. :(

It's been so long since I had an actual conversation with you. :(

*

I MISS YOU! :(

fml :(

My stupid ugly but so pretty and nice sony phone.

IT'S SPOILT!

:'(

And the sad thing is, all my saved messsages are gone. I don't know how but they're all gone.

Even if I got my phone fixed, how on earth am I going to retrive all my saved messages. :'( There's a reason why they're saved and now they're gone.

I don't get those anymore.